Entries From An Insecure Gay Black Boy

Listen to me dive into a subject that I recently starting working on. Growing into adulthood has been a difficult transition for me but it has also benefited some aspects in my life.  Diving deeper into the general conversaton about friends has been one of them.  Instagram: Sonshinehilaire

Listen to me talk about finding my confidence. Never really having an example of self-love, I became immune to the consequences.  Instagram: Sonshinehilaire

Listen to me give you insight on where my mind is currently, at the age of 23.  Having to struggle with accepting my place in this world starts with accepting the pros and cons aout myself.  Instagram: Sonshinehilaire

In this episode, I talk about when I met with a guy on Jack'd and things took a turn that I did not see coming..  Instagram: Sonshinehilaire

In this episode, I talk about the effects I experienced of being an insecure black gay boy with sneaky links. What lessons did I learn about sneaky links? Do I regret meeting them? Which one had the most impact on me? Instagram: Sonshinehilaire

In this episode I dive into the heavily used derogatory term used mainly in the south. Whats the origin of the word "Ponk"? What's the obsession with black girls having a gay friend? Have I ever been called a "Ponk" before? Instagram: Sonshinehilaire

In this episode I share how me being insecure about myself lead to me catfishing my classmate who  I had a crush on. Did I get caught? Do I have regrets? Do I still catfish?  Instagram: Sonshinehilaire

In this episode I dive into my past about performing sexual acts on two different occasions. How has it affected me? When did I realize that it had an impact on my everyday life? Will I ever expose them? Have I ever told my mom about being  a victim?  Instagram: Sonshinehilaire

In this episode I get into why church has become a place where I will never seek shelter or guidance from. Instagram: Sonshinehilaire

In this episode I talk about the events that I went through having a Haitain homophobic mother... who in he beginning was verbally and physically abusive to me. When did it start?What tip would I give to young gay black boys who are in the same situation?  Instagram: Sonshinehilaire

In this episode I spill my experience as a young gay insecure boy on hookup apps and the toll it took on my mental health. Am I still recovering? When was the last time I relapsed? What advice would I give to the younger gays?  Instagram: Sonshinehilaire

Being the gay black boy who has black girls as friends. There is constant struggles that we face on a daily basis. Do they support me? Would they support their gay son? Is it even a friendship or am I good time? Instagram: Sonshinehilaire

On this episode I dive into hearing the stories/fantasies about DL men made me highly curious about experiencing what it is to be in a DL situationship.  Instagram: Sonshinehilaire