Everything Changes

in this episode of everything changes, i talk about the version of myself i had to leave behind in order to grow. the habits, mindset, fears, and people i once held onto felt familiar, but not everything familiar is meant to stay. sometimes growth means grieving old versions of yourself while learning to become someone new. this episode is about change, healing, and realizing that outgrowing yourself isn’t betrayal..it’s necessary.

in this episode, i talk about something i never really explained before—why i disappeared for two years. no filters, no pretending like everything stayed the same. i go back to what actually happened during that time, what led up to me stepping away, and what life looked like while i was gone. there were moments of change, confusion, growth, and honestly, survival. if you ever felt like you needed to disappear, this one’s for you.

(video exclusively on youtube) so…i turned 19. which is very exciting and even marvelously fun but also..very scary? the thought of getting older truly does frighten me but also proves to me and everyone in my life that, i made it through anyway. i’ve made it through the toughest days and the hardest times of my life. i think aging is beautiful and it’s apart of the human condition, but, to think that you are eventually going to get older and not any younger, makes you think that you have to experience life now more than ever. time is very delicate and short, and it’s best to make the most of it. i hope you guys enjoys todays video episode!;)

have you ever thought about not being able to love or to be loved? maybe? maybe not? well…i have and it’s not fun. it’s truly scary having these negative thoughts and emotions about love and the perspective on not feeling seen or heard when in a relationship with someone. taking on the risk of being vulnerable and sharing that vulnerability with someone sometimes isn’t ideal in most cases. for todays episode, we’re diving into the conversation on losing hope on finding that perfect someone!

this is a true story that happened. very traumatic and very scary but kinda funny?. it honestly wasn’t ideal in the slightest, because why on earth would you call the cops on a 10 year old kid?! it’s truly unbelievable and terrifying in every way possible. anyway, i’m excited to be back this week!! i’m working on two new video podcasts as of right now, one with a guest and a solo episode! i haven’t made a video podcast in so long..it kinda feels new to me for some odd reason..i have no idea why. i hope you guys enjoy todays episode! see ya next wednesday! ttyl:)

HEY GUYS!! today, we’re going to be talking about past friendship breakups, my embarrassing situationship (trust me, it really was but for me) and smoking for the very first time. i was a little nervous and scared to talk about the smoking part because, some of my family do listen to the podcast but…it is what it is. the experience wasn’t bad, it was actually pretty fun. i wouldn’t recommend smoking though or push people to endure in smoking. it’s a personal choice to smoke or to not smoke. do you boo. anyways, i hope you guys enjoy todays episode because truly, it’s an adventure.

holy shit guys…it’s been a HOT minute since i last did a podcast episode. sorry for the delay but i was just taking some much needed time off lol. for todays episode, i’m going to be talking about my prom night, my graduation ceremony experience, going on a plane for the first time and FLORIDA!!! june was such a busy month for me but also a very exciting month as well. a lot of shit happened. anyways, i hope you guys enjoy todays episode. a lil announcement! spotify seems to be changing a lot of their tools and resources + new software updates that effected the ability for me to upload video podcasts directly on spotify. i will continue to do video podcasts, but they will be available only on youtube..permanently 💌

i love ranting..like..a lot. it’s honestly a real issue when i annoy people around me with my problems. anyways, since i haven’t posted in a while, i thought it would be a good idea to just sit down and record my rant about my mental health, and, a few other (exciting) things that are happening in the next couple weeks like prom, graduation, and a party?!? sounds weirddddd.

trying to start a business, especially at a young age, is extremely challenging to navigate through, even when your doing it ALL by yourself. the ongoing motivation and dedication sort of runs its course when you are filled with such joy and excitement about starting a brand that you poured your heart and soul into, but then leads to frustration and stress when it doesn't go as planned. for todays episode, i'm going to be talking about how my coffee company failed before it even launched. there is SO much to unpack so...get prepared and bring a damn snack.

I am officially back hoes!!! I am so beyond excited to be back and ready to sit and record for 15 hours straight. anyways, today we are celebrating the 3 year anniversary of everything changes, which is so exciting and even crazy to say out loud. I am beyond grateful for the growth that this podcast has achieved, and I can't wait to embark on more crazy ass journeys. today we will dive into why i started podcasting, the ups and downs of podcasting, my cover art HORROR show and what i look forward to for the future of the podcast. so that's...pretty much it. now, just sit back and relax, and enjoy this episode! XOXO, JOHN ♡

this episode is really…chaotic. but, today we will be talking about owning your independence. hopefully john explains it well (he probably won’t).

anxiety is something that is incredibly common and difficult to manage through on a daily basis, especially when it troubles your every day life. today, we will be discussing the importance and challenges of anxiety.

it’s 3 in the morning, and im losing my mind. i don’t know what’s going on in this episode or what i was even talking about. but that’s the point anyway. so, please enjoy the next 45 minutes of rambling about every little thing in my life. i explain things in a very short and confusing manner. i hope you enjoy this episode and if you didn’t…don’t tell me because i am a sensitive libra.

family is forever. it feels good knowing that you have family in the world who will perhaps be there for you. but, family drama can sort of cause a bit of conflict between family dynamics. from experience, i have seen and witnessed a lot of negative dramatic moments within my family, and it was always difficult to stem away from that environmental aspect and in hopes it didn’t affect my relations with any of my family members.

IM BACK! and i decided to share this beauty of an episode titled "to your inner child'' to showcase and even embrace that we all have a inner child within ourselves who maybe sometimes we keep hidden from the real world. i want this episode to spread light and spread love to anyone who misses their childhood. as we enter adulthood, we wish we could go back and be a kid, to be young and free, because it felt right. nowadays, we cant't just run free anymore. this world is too unkind. i want this video to represent compassion, love, gratitude, and enjoyment of our childhood years. thank you to everyone who has been patient with me. i really hope you like this video:)

so...is it just me or is summer not really summering right now? maybe because summer doesn't really start until the 21st but, I haven't really been feeling the summer vibes lately. my mind and body are still stuck in the winter stage which is odd and confusing. i am missing summer heavily so i am excited for whats to come in the summertime. i have more FREEDOM because school is offically over...FINALLY!

welp, im putting in my 2 weeks notice. as some of you guys may or may not know, i will be getting my wisdom teeth taken out, which is scaring me to death. but, i should hopefully feel better in the next 2 weeks, hoping to recover and heal shortly so i can get back to publishing and dropping episodes. for now, ill talk to you guys later, BYE

today, we will be talking about the challenges and aspects of being a child and being an adult. obviously, we are taught to grow to quickly, or feeling like we have to in order to escape the traumatic experiences that we face during our teenage years, in hopes of becoming an adult to not face those obstacles ever again. but, that’s is completely false. as both a child and an adult, we face numerous problems and issues in our life.

just a fair warning to share with you all just in case. today, we will be covering a topic that is a little bit sensitive for most people who deal with depressive episodes or just any other mental health issues in general. but, if you find this episode to be very personal or very sensitive to you, please feel free to not watch this episode. so today, i wanted to talk about managing a depressive episode. two months ago, i had a VERY intense mental breakdown that i couldn't really describe in words. its like i was grasping for air, and i couldn't really understand why i was having this breakdown. but, more or less, i got through it with the best support from my mom who was there for me and i couldn't thank her enough. but, i know for some its difficult to recieve support when you are going through something so cryptic and so emotionally depressing, so i wanted to share some things on how to manage a depressive episode. these are some of the things that worked for me, hopefully they can work for you.

we all know nepotism has been the latest conversation in the public eye, and how nepotism affects the workplace environment & the coworkers from providing their incredible work ethic and creativity. nepotism is even spreaded around in celebrity culture, where TONS of unknown actors appear in movies out of no where, only to find out their father is has been in the industry for 20+ years and has had a massive successful career in the acting profession, and they had it easy auditioning for that specific role for a film because well…of their father. so today, we will be getting into on how nepotism can affect the workplace and how to resolve the problem with nepotism.