I Am Self-full Podcast

In this episode I tackle the theme of my 2024 which is rejection, I try to make sense of it while also giving myself room to still dream and find joy. I openly share my thoughts on different parts of my life and the various things I’ve experienced that have shaped a version of me that’s currently unhappy with herself,is lonely and somehow still keeps going.Tune in to find out more…

In this episode I talk about what I’m enjoying and not enjoying in music,what I’d like to hear more of in music and albums I have on rotation. I share my thoughts about recently turning 26 as well as my general thoughts about what’s happening in the world.In the last segment of this episode I advocate against the atrocities committed against Palestine🇵🇸,The Congo🇨🇩 and Sudan🇸🇩 .While I may not be the most well versed on what’s happening and I may not have the biggest platform to speak out against the genocide occurring, I would still like to use my platform to share more information from more informed people in order to bring awareness and hopefully do whatever we can to help out.Below is a list of videos to watch to give you a better understanding of what’s happening and why it’s important to speak out against it: https://www.instagram.com/reel/Cybd49CPOZM/?igsh=NWtnYjh1ZzNqaTNu https://www.instagram.com/reel/CyaZ1pGOLkA/?igsh=ZmJpdWY2c3E3cnc5 https://www.instagram.com/reel/Cy7n45wOM2k/?igsh=MWIwandmanhrM3o1YQ== https://www.instagram.com/reel/CzxNOlopIhY/?igsh=MWl1bXgwMTk2YzMyeQ== https://www.tiktok.com/@farahelkordyy/video/7315155343414267142?_t=8n2IjaRIJO9&_r=1 https://youtu.be/bHgZoJoF8c4?si=m57jsjKQjLZZLeMC https://youtu.be/aEJP-Sksuwc?si=iT_IOlmNJLWQbcuv #FREEPALESTINE #FREECONGO #FREESUDAN 🇸🇩🇨🇩🇵🇸

In this episode I give my thoughts on the Drake and Kendrick Lamar beef,express the delay in an episode drop as well as share what bothered me this week and what I learned from it.

Tune in and find out what finally brought me back! I hope you enjoy listening to this as much as I enjoyed recording it. Episode title inspired by: https://music.apple.com/na/album/just-for-fun/1738363766?i=1738363901 Outro taken from: https://m.youtube.com/channel/UCSZYdJd84wrlL4Y0cLiEdoA

Triger warning, this episode contains conversations about death, mental illnesses, sexual assault, murder and suicide amongst other topics that can be triggering so please be advised before tuning in to find out why I QUIT. Link to the YouTube video referenced in this episode : https://youtu.be/FIfpeWaM_2M Link to the podcast's Instagram for any enquiries : https://www.instagram.com/iamself_full.podcast/

In this episode I give a mental health update and address how that is impacting the podcast and talk about the different changes i've been experience while on hiatus.

Listen to me try to explain and understand how romanticizing and fantasizing about things as well as delusion has worked for me, how it also worked against me and how that showed up in my relationships. I decided to not edit this episode to show the complexities of piecing different personal experiences together to form an understanding of how everything that happened to us explains who we then become.

In the final episode of 2022 I give a recap of how 2022 went for me by sharing some of my fondest memories, my greatest lessons and the state of my mental health. I talk about what led me to create this podcast and how this podcast has impacted me in my everyday life.Along with the intentions I have for myself in the upcoming year I also make some announcements to expand on the direction of the podcast as we get into another year.

This week’s episode highlights some of the hardships that people face during holiday/festive season.I discuss how triggering this time can be for people who come from dysfunctional homes,abusive home or financially unstable homes as well as people who feel extremely lonely. I also talk about different reasons why we shouldn’t shame people who decide to spend this time with their friends or alone rather than travelling home to be with family. This episode is for anyone who doesn’t celebrate or enjoy Christmas as well as people that don’t participate in some of the traditions that everyone else does. To everyone who is reminded of the people they lost during this time, I am sending nothing but love❤️ The video referenced in this episode: https://youtu.be/jTi4F_ugV2Q The article referenced in this episode: https://nedratawwab.bulletin.com/165320035749743/?section=comments

Trigger warning ⚠️this episode is not appropriate for viewers under the age of 18 as I talk about sex and other sex related topics. In this episode of the podcast I have a nuanced conversation about worthiness by breaking down why a lot of people don’t feel worthy and how that looks. I talk about how desirability, colourism, texturism,relationships, perfectionism, “hustle mentality” and so much more play into how we view our worth. I also expose myself by being completely vulnerable and honest about a story of what I’ve attached my worth to and how it affected me(the story is more embarrassing than sensitive) The video about Beauty standards : https://youtu.be/UDA8xsE9jQw

In today’s episode I talk about what year-end fatigue is, how it presents itself in our daily routine and different ways to try to combat it. I also give a teaser of what to expect in the last few episodes of this season and share an important announcement 📣 The link to the article referenced in the podcast 👉🏾 https://togetherwepass.co.za/how-to-cope-with-year-end-fatigue/

In today’s episode I hold space and compassion for people who despite being aware of the importance of feeling your feelings instead of dismissing them as well as the importance of our mental health, these same people do not always have the luxury to feel each feeling as it is being felt/experienced or to listen to their body and rest or to get into therapy. So many times I’ve talked about the importance of mental health awareness and removing the stigma around it so that we can all seek help and heal but it is also insensitive and insincere to not recognize how in the same breath, not everyone has access to this kind of help or has the financial capability to seek this kind of help from a mental health professional. I reiterate the importance of still staying educated and aware of different things that happen to us or we do which impact our mental health so that when we find the time or the resources needed we can then apply all these lessons and break generational traumas. I am kindly sending love to anyone who is currently pushing through something and can’t seem to catch a break or find a moment to sit with themselves and reflect on the battles they are fighting and how it has impacted their mental health as a whole.

I would like to give a Trigger Warning about the sensitivity of some of the topics discussed such as death and grief. In this episode I talk about why I wasn’t able to post an episode last week.I give a full unfiltered review of my mental health during that period,the good the bad and the ugly. I talk about different things including my irregular sleeping pattern,why I choose to isolate when I’m not okay,my relationship with God,the importance of community and so much more of the things I felt and navigated through what was a dark period for my mental health by painting a picture of what “I’m not okay” looked like for me and in the end I talk about what I learned about my mental health during that time and what I want to do differently in dark moments.

If you or someone you know is a people pleaser but excuses it as “I’m a good person” then this episode is for you .In today’s episode I explore what it is to be a people pleaser and different ways it presents and why it isn’t in your best interest to be a people pleaser or to aim to be liked by everyone .I explain the different ways to combat that and the benefits of confrontation,communication,setting boundaries and always showing up as yourself. I also get into what I’ve learned about why as people we do things that align with being a people pleaser and why the fear of rejection often holds us back and so much more.

Have you always wondered what the title of the Podcast means?In today’s episode I explain what the term “Self-Full” means to me and the different things I do to achieve that or live up to that. I also ask everyone who is tuning in to let me know what it means to them and what they do to live up to that.Don’t forget to rate each episode of the podcast and leave a review as well following us on instagram to stay updated on any information regarding the podcast.

I apologize in advance for the background noises but I hope this moment resonates with someone and whoever is listening is able to be compassion as I express myself and share a moment of pure vulnerability.

Did you know that everything children do is learned behaviour?My guests (Maverick ,Light,Shania,Vija,Alex) and I answer the question “What are the some of the things you’ve had to unlearn in order to build your identity” and while it may sound like neither of us actually answered that question,the vulnerability in the rabbit hold we all went down,more or less gives insight into what we have had to learn or what came to mind when we heard that question as well as our different interpretations based on their various age groups,nationalities,genders and experiences.I also express how I’ve had to unlearn the habit of taking everyone’s advice or opinion and how it led me to a path that didn’t make me happy and how one needs to filter the noise of opinions,advice and imposed ideas in order to find the voice that resonates with who they know they are so they can build an identity or sense of self.What are some of the things you’ve had to unlearn,let us know by leaving a review and rating the episode 5 stars if you enjoyed it.

We all have someone in our lives who when they tell stories they always make it a point to blame everyone else and not recognize where they might be in the wrong. In today’s episode ,I talk about how once you’ve been victimized in a certain situation you can start to believe you’re a victim in every other situation you encounter moving forward. I dive into some of the effects of always assuming the role of a victim and how it can affect your relationships as a result. This episode was not made to blame victims of any form of violation or abuse but to teach people who aren’t experiencing any form of violation to take accountability and recognize how they are responsible for what they allow in their life and to take control of their life and not watch life happen to them. By recognizing our own flaws and faults we can correct them and learn from them.

In today’s episode I ask the very simple yet complicated question,Do you really love yourself ?A question that took me 22 to years to ask myself,I explore and explain some of the most painful parts of my childhood,the trauma I experienced,how everything I went through early on in my childhood broke down my spirit,how it affected me as I grew as well as ways it presented itself in my adulthood when I had tried my best to run away from it. I hope this episode can get us all to a place where we can stop pretending we’re okay and take time to not only confront our harsh realities but to ask ourselves if we haven’t already ,the simple yet complicated questions we avoid asking ourselves because we are afraid of dealing with what it would look like if our answer isn’t what we pretend it is .

Welcome to I am Self-full podcast,here’s a glimpse of what it will be about.Stay tuned.