LUNCH TIME WITH DEMONS

Season Two (Ep 38) Bella opens with a quick plea for listeners to get their flu shots, then introduces omnism, the view that every religion holds some piece of common truths and valid insight and none has a monopoly on it. She uses that as a frame for a bigger topic: a viral Gaia video in which Elizabeth April describes being an extraterrestrial temporarily living in a human body and discusses conflict within the "Galactic Federation." Bella says she believes April but thinks she's sharing these ideas without the foundation listeners need. She then lays out her own cosmology: time is non-linear and shaped like a funnel or cone, with planetary deities as universal energies; reincarnated lives happen simultaneously; dimensions interact through a "mirrored" universe; and some divine beings, including Lucifer, have physical forms. She traces all of this to her encounter in Los Angeles with "Galaxy Lady," a client she describes as a being from another universe, when a portal reportedly opened and knocked out power on the street, and three "watcher" beings spoke to Lucifer through her. She says that moment upended her practice and is why she struggles to call her deities "demons." The second half focuses on how to hold information like this responsibly. Bella pushes back on framing the Federation as having a "dark side," arguing that its disagreements are about how progression and survival should unfold, not good versus evil, and that someone visiting it can't know when in time they've landed. She stresses that these experiences should be applied to living better as a human rather than longing to escape to a higher existence, and describes peace and growth as coming through dissolving ego. She repeatedly frames everything as her unverified personal gnosis (UPG), subject to change, and urges listeners to observe without necessarily absorbing, to use adult discernment, and to stay grounded and collective-minded. She mentions losing a friend to psychosis and suicide as the reason she's been cautious. Ryan adds that the trouble usually comes from what people do with gnosis, holding it too tightly instead of letting it move through them, and the two close by agreeing that dualism holds back growth and that everyone holds a piece of a larger puzzle. Next week's episode will cover AI and spirituality.

Season Two (Ep 36) A cardinal lands outside Bella's window, and she takes it as a hello from Satan — a fitting omen to open the finale of the Leviathan series. From there, Bella and Ryan lay out a sea-serpent field guide to the monsters braided into Leviathan's imagery of Tiamat, Norse Jörmungandr, the Vedic Vritra, Japan's Ryūjin, and more tracing the strange cross-cultural pattern of storm gods forever battling serpents of the sea, and asking why so many of these creatures get cast as female or villainous. Ryan's read of Melville's Moby Dick as a leviathan of the unconquerable subconscious, while Bella shares local cryptid encounters from the Hudson Valley to a Vermont lake-monster road trip. The second half turns to practice: Bella makes the case that ocean conservation beach cleanups, leaving shells and driftwood for the ecosystem, cutting waste that fouls his waters is among the truest offerings to Leviathan, and walks through the spare altar and unusual gifts he accepts, from Hudson River finds to a falling-apart tarot deck he claimed as his own. She closes on his patience and loyalty, and the unusually welcoming community that gathers around him. Ave Leviathan. Cover art created by Casey at BellTarot.com

Season Two (Ep 36 Cont.) This the continuation of episode 36 for the final 16 mins of the episode

Season Two (Ep 36) This second episode in the Leviathan series shifts from lore to Bella's personal practice of what it's actually like to work with him. She describes his energy as heavy and dense, like sitting at the bottom of the ocean, and says that's why many people only engage with him in small doses. Before reaching out to him (unless he's already reaching out to you), she recommends knowing how you handle stress, shadow work, and the subconscious, since he tends to expose exactly what you're avoiding. She lists signs he's reaching out sudden ocean or serpent content, a pull toward the coast, irritability, and especially his sigil or name showing up everywhere, since she says he's the most direct of the entities she works with about identifying himself. She also touches on his associations (Neptune's slow, wide-reaching, consistent energy; a comparison to low and high tide for how he exposes and then eases off), his willingness to present as male or female, and general advice to approach any entity with curiosity rather than assumptions. The bulk of the episode is a candid, emotional account of her own six-month upheaval when Leviathan entered her practice: he exposed her unaddressed depression, people-pleasing, self-sabotage, and unhealthy dynamics with Lucifer, at one point leading her to pack up her altar entirely before apologizing and unpacking it the next day. She frames this as him teaching her self-regulation and accountability in ways other entities in her practice hadn't, and describes a resulting sense of humility and unconditional love among Leviathan practitioners generally. She closes with practical notes: he's a minimalist who dislikes clutter and prefers intentional, simple offerings (a shell, a sigil coaster, things returned to nature) over lots of items, and cares more about how you engage with him than what you give him. Ryan then shares his own relationship with Leviathan as a calm, near-wordless companion during freediving, and Bella previews episode three, which will cover serpent and sea-god folklore and Leviathan's connection to Neptune. Abella's LinkTree Ryan's LinkTree

Season Two (Ep 35) In this first episode of a three-part series on Leviathan, Bella and Ryan trace the entity's history through texts. Bella explains that Leviathan predates Judaism and Christianity, and links him to the Ugaritic sea and chaos serpents Lotan and Yam from the Baal cycle. She follows him through the Hebrew Bible (Job, Psalms and Isaiah 27), where he is a monster of chaos that only God can defeat and is never called a demon. She also covers the apocryphal and Midrashic material: Behemoth as his land-dwelling counterpart in 1 Enoch, the Apocalypse of Abraham's shift toward a cosmic god of the abyss, and stories of male and female Leviathans. She notes that Revelation never names him. In the Middle Ages he becomes the "mouth of Hell," and Binsfeld later assigns him to Envy. Weyer's hierarchies place him among the infernal ranks, and Collin de Plancy names him Grand Admiral of Hell. The second half looks at his modern occult identity. Bella explains that his sigil is really the alchemical symbol for sulfur, which became "Leviathan's Cross" only after Anton LaVey used it in the 1960s. She also covers his broader role in the Qliphoth as a current running through the whole initiation, and the idea that the Abyss and the Void are separate entities that can be worked with independently. Throughout, she says that everything discussed is human interpretation rather than direct knowledge of him, and that he "is not for everyone," though the abyss touches everyone's life. She sums up the plan for the series: this episode is the textual foundation, the next covers working with him personally, and the third covers UPG (unverified personal gnosis). Abella's LinkTree Ryan's LinkTree

This Morbid Monday mini-episode with Bella and Ryan extends their NSFW divine-practices episode into a deep dive on human-divine conception across history tracing it from Greek mythology (Zeus fathering Hercules, Perseus, and Dionysus) through Egyptian pharaonic lore, Mesopotamian traditions (Gilgamesh, Enuma Elish, Enki's temple marriages), the virgin birth of Jesus, and Renaissance-era monarchies and alchemical self-deification, up to Carl Jung's psychological "sacred marriage" with the divine. Bella then turns to modern astral/energetic experiences of divine pregnancy and birth, describing how these can manifest literally or symbolically (as constellations, dragons, or other imagery) and sharing her own practice of co-creating with entities she's spoused to, plus a personal reflection on her daughter Juniper's heterochromia as a possible energetic connection to Lucifer. The episode closes with a message of non-judgment emphasizing that everyone's experience of divine union is valid, that practitioners shouldn't feel shame or need external validation, and that this practice has ancient, cross-cultural roots rather than being a modern or fringe phenomenon.

Season Two (Ep 34) This episode of Lunchtime with Demons opens with a heavy disclaimer before diving into deliberately taboo occult territory bindings, patron work, god-spousal rites, pregnancies with divine entities, and other-dimensional lives. Her central framework treats bindings as literal alchemy: she walks through a chemistry metaphor (atoms rearranging into water) to argue that union with a divine being changes your internal "compound" the way two elements react to form something new, and connects this to the idea that time is linear for humans but nonlinear for the divine meaning a "patron" bond can feel predestined even before a formal binding is done. She distinguishes ordinary bindings (a full chemical change) from a newer, harder-to-name pattern she's seeing across many unconnected clients this year a "layering" or "nameless/Emperor-Empress" binding that feels less like transformation and more like an entity's essence being layered onto a practitioner, which she ties to her own priesthood binding with Lucifer and his explanation of why she can't take vows to another entity. Ryan chimes in periodically to reinforce her points (the Catholic cardinal/bishop/pope progression as a metaphor for repeated "distillation," relationships with the divine as vehicles, the Matrix Oracle scene about understanding rather than making a choice). She pivots into multidimensional/past-life gnosis arguing all your lives are happening simultaneously rather than sequentially, and that your current life is the version that "wins out" while repeatedly cautioning listeners to stay grounded, use discernment, and not romanticize or rush into these practices, distinguishing her approach from traditionalist occultism and from what she sees as unqualified pop-psychology labeling of practitioners as "psychotic." She runs long (over an hour), promises a follow-up "Morbid Monday" episode on divine pregnancy and an upcoming Leviathan series, plugs her limited fall reading session "Lacrimosa" (available through Samhain, releasing September 27th on a new website), and closes reminding listeners to get flu shots and take care of their mental health. Cover art created by Casey at BellTarot.com Abella's LinkTree Ryan's LinkTree

Season Two (Ep 33) This was the back-to-school episode of Lunchtime with Demons, marking the show's return to weekly episodes and its first anniversary. Bella and Ryan opened with the news that Spotify ranks them the #1 demonology podcast (with a laugh about having essentially no direct competition), then swapped personal updates: Ryan talked about the busy summer at the shop and meeting Marcella Kroll for a tarot signing, while Bella recounted turning 40, the deaths of Tim Curry and Dolly Parton that same week and how both artists shaped her life (Rocky Horror, playing Dolly in Country Girls the weekend her grandfather died), and a birthday trip to Quebec City and Montreal. The Montreal trip became the episode's emotional core. Bella described the culture shock of returning to the U.S. (a rough stop at Cracker Barrel) and used it to riff at length on American burnout culture, self-worth tied to productivity, and how travel exposes how normalized that grind has become; Ryan connected it to his own experience leaving a chef career. They tied this back to deity/devotional work perfectionism and feeling unworthy of a deity's favor and Bella flagged September as a time for reflection and gently raised suicide-awareness month, urging listeners toward small acts of connection. The episode closed with a card pull (King of Wands, Gratitude, and Sparks of Light) tied to themes of self-worth and gratitude, and a teaser that the next episode will focus on Leviathan. Cover art created by Casey at BellTarot.com Abella's LinkTree Ryan's LinkTree

In this Morbid Monday episode, Bella opens up about a rough-but-transformative eight months, using Brandi Carlile's "The Joke" as a jumping-off point for reflecting on setbacks with her creative career. She talks candidly about the frustrations of trying to get her work (including her book NUMoS) through traditional publishing channels, and how "burn-to-earn" market pressure and personal limitations from her team have blocked projects she believes in. She pivots into a passionate call for other artists and creatives to self-publish, share their work unapologetically, and stop waiting for permission from agents or the market. She recommends a self-published poetry book, teases new writing going up on her Substack (poems, essays, and eventually NUMoS excerpts), and closes with an emotional thank-you to Ryan for being a steady, unwavering supporter through her ups and downs. Abell's SubStack Tarot in Everything: 78 Tarot Poems - Lexi Hideko

Season Two (Ep 32) Azazel Part Three: This is the third and final episode in Bella and Ryan series on Lord Azazel, focused specifically on the physical side of working with him offerings, colors, tarot, and the forms he takes. Reading largely from her unpublished book (still on submission with publishers), Bella explains that Azazel isn't especially drawn to typical physical offerings, preferring devotional ones instead: red wine and dark spirits, frankincense and myrrh, animal bones (she describes finding a fully decomposed mouse skeleton and placing it on his altar), and raw/imperfect-cast metals like silver, steel, gold, pewter, and obsidian. She also describes bringing him books she struggles with (citing the neuroscience book "Behave"), writing out her doubts and personal revelations as offerings she says are "more precious to him than gold," and BMS (blood, masturbation, sex) offerings strictly by his request only. She lists his preferred colors (indigo, silver, gray, slate, pewter, black, emerald, moss green), tarot cards (the Emperor, Wheel of Fortune, King of Swords), and describes his physical form tall, lean, wild black hair, narrow eyes under a heavy brow, a military-style jacket, trailing fog/smoke, and sometimes appearing as a crow or magpie-like bird. She also shares a personal synchronicity ritual she calls "Adam" (ATOM), where repeated symbols/names signal his presence. Ryan then shares his own experience, describing a windowsill altar Azazel asked him to build using reflective/shiny objects, and a copper vessel where evaporating water (or, more recently, distilled vinegar) creates a striking blue oxidized crystallization he's incorporated into his woodworking and magical crafts — interestingly, both note they independently have similar oxidized copper bowls for Azazel. The two discuss how Azazel excels at helping people perceive the divine and recognize dimensions of reality beyond ordinary human perception, comparing it to how an ant can't fully perceive humans. Bella closes by promoting a new project a channeled spoken-word poetry book called "The Essence Inferno" she'll share on TikTok thanks Azazel for "going next" in the book series, teases an upcoming entity for a future episode, reminds listeners the show returns to a weekly schedule in September, and mentions it was her 40th birthday. Cover art created by Casey at BellTarot.com Abella's LinkTree Ryan's LinkTree

Season Two (Ep 31) Azazel Part Two : This episode of Lunchtime with Demons opens with Bella sharing that she's been moving through grief in her personal life while leaning on her spiritual practice including Azazel for support. She then shifts into the episode's main focus: a historical walkthrough of Azazel drawn from her forthcoming book, tracing his appearances from Leviticus and the Yom Kippur scapegoat ritual, through the Books of Enoch (where he's cast as a chief Watcher who taught forbidden knowledge), Jubilees (positioned as the origin of demons), the Apocalypse of Abraham, and a lesser-known apocryphal Islamic reference under the name Iblis. Along the way she and Ryan discuss how monotheistic traditions tend to frame divine knowledge-sharing as corruption, using it as a lens to critique religious authority more broadly, with a tangent into Mormonism and Joseph Smith as a modern example of religion taking on governmental power. The second half moves into Bella's personal UPG (unverified personal gnosis) about Azazel describing him not as a fallen angel but as a primordial being and an early evolution of Lucifer, independent of him but spiritually linked, with Elohim framed as having supported rather than opposed the Watchers' descent. She closes on a more emotional note, reflecting on how grief has drawn her toward tragic literature (Hadestown, Macbeth, Romeo and Juliet) as an unexpectedly healing practice, before previewing the next episode, which will cover practical work with Azazel altars, offerings, tarot, and planetary associations. Cover art created by Casey at BellTarot.com

Season Two (Ep 30) This episode kicks off a three-part series on Azazel, flipped from their usual format instead of starting with history, Bella and Ryan open with their personal experiences working with him. Bella shares how Azazel entered her practice in 2020 while she was primarily working with Lucifer, Duke Vaal, and Amon, describing an intense, unsubtle energy that initially scared her. She recounts a striking synchronicity: after telling him she wasn't ready, he said he'd return in a year and exactly a year later, a crow flew into her bedroom on that same date. She frames him as Lucifer's counterbalance and mirror, the "atmosphere" that lets her practice bloom, associates him with Saturn and the Akashic Records, and describes him as the one who pushed her out of solo practice into visibility and accountability. Ryan describes Azazel as one of the quieter, more understated presences in his practice, communicating primarily through light projected images, reflections, and unexpected beams that show up "everywhere" once the connection was established. Bella adds her own recurring visionary motif of ritual baths, faceless attendants, and Azazel reading to her from wordless books that reveal text over time, along with a memorable exchange during tornado-relief work where he told her "everything is funny." Both agree he's intensely attentive, expects devotion, and shows up unmistakably once you know his "signature." The episode closes with housekeeping: the podcast is shifting to biweekly through August due to summer scheduling, an update that Lunchtime with Demons remains on submission. Cover art created by Casey at BellTarot.com Abella's LinkTree Ryan's LinkTree

Season Two (Ep 28) This episode of Lunchtime with Demons opens with Bella recounting a severe 2019 car accident, an oncoming collision that left her with hairline cervical fractures, a torn meniscus, and lasting PTSD which she frames as the catalyst for her creative and spiritual awakening. She traces how that forced downtime pushed her to write Milk and Honey, Second Death, and The Dao of Farfalla, and to eventually leave conventional work to run her own business and lean fully into her clairvoyant abilities. She and Ryan talk through the rejection she's faced from collaborators and industry gatekeepers, and she repeatedly urges creatives to "stand by your pile of poop" and get uncomfortable art into the world rather than chase mainstream approval. The conversation then shifts into a philosophical riff on the nature of the divine using ants and crows as metaphors for how limited beings can only partially perceive a much larger consciousness and how deepening one's spiritual practice inevitably alienates a person from "normal" life, relationships, and marketable work. Bella connects this to her own relationship with Lucifer, describing his guidance around timing and patience for releasing her writing, and shares that her client work is showing a thematic pattern of "divine family" members re-emerging in her practice. The episode closes with her noting that it had originally been planned as a deep-dive on the demon Azazel (who entered her life around the time of her accident), which she and Ryan push to a future three-part episode, alongside a note of gratitude for the support she's received around a possible self-published book Numos. Cover art created by Casey at BellTarot.com Abella's Link Tree Ryan's Link Tree

Season Two (Ep 28) This episode of Lunchtime with Demons is recorded remotely while Bella is visiting family in Arkansas, and it centers on solitude, presence, and spiritual practice. Bella reflects on how having unstructured alone time away from her usual New York noise and workload has deepened her connection to her team making their presence feel louder and more constant. She and Ryan discuss how gatekeeping and rigid "rules" in occult retail spaces often stem from ego and a need to feel right, contrasting that with their own approach of education over prescription. Ryan shares a parallel practice of using solo drive time as space to check in with their own team instead of numbing out with music. The second half turns more personal and vulnerable: Bella describes receiving unexpectedly bad news mid-episode and how staying anchored to Lucifer let her regulate quickly rather than spiral, framing the setback as "a dead end for them, not for me." She weaves this into broader themes that peace and stability are internal, not external, outcomes; that manifestation rarely looks like what you expected; using her fitness journey and five years of business ownership as examples. She closes with an appeal to listeners not to give up, and previews upcoming episodes on Azazel and Leviathan, noting she'll start covering demon-specific content on the podcast itself while the companion book is still on submission. Cover art created by Casey at BellTarot.com Abella's Link Tree Ryan's Link Tree

Season Two (Ep 27) This episode of Lunchtime with Demons centers on Bella's deep dive into "surrender" as a practice, sparked by a TikTok comment and by her own ritual experience during the recent Strawberry Moon in Capricorn. She frames surrender not as passive acceptance of circumstances but as an internal act recognizing that triggers and "problems" we see externally are reflections of unhealed patterns and old identity/ego programming, and that real surrender means releasing the self rather than submitting to people or situations. She's careful to distinguish this from victim-blaming, explicitly excluding situations involving abuse or violated autonomy, and instead applies the framework to everyday friction like toxic friends, bad bosses, or recurring relationship patterns. Raven contributes grounding metaphors throughout learning to float as a child, treating symptoms versus root causes when sick that reinforce Bella's core point about looking inward rather than fighting outward circumstances.The conversation also moves into identity and ego death, with Bella discussing how labels (even flattering ones) box people in and how she's spent months dismantling parts of her own identity as "the demon lady," a former performer, someone who feels she must defend her heritage or beliefs when triggered. She offers practical, small-scale surrender techniques (stepping outside, a few deep breaths, a beach ritual releasing words on the tide) alongside the larger, harder work of not building your sense of self around a need to defend or prove yourself. The episode winds down on prison reform advocacy work Bella has quietly done for years, a distinction between healthy alone time and harmful isolation, and a closing riff on bird-watching and a red-breasted nuthatch as a spiritual sign about tackling problems from new angles ending on her message to stop shrinking yourself out of fear of being "too much." Abells's LinkTree Ryan's LinkTree

Season Two (Ep 26) This episode is Part 2 of Bella and Ryan's deep dive into King Belial, picking up where last week's lore-heavy episode left off. Bella frames her approach to Belial's cross-pantheon connections (vampiric folklore, Brahma, the Fae, Vlad the Impaler, draconian energy) through her broader philosophy that pantheons are human-constructed walls, and that stripping them away to engage with divine energy directly reveals how deeply interconnected it all is. Belial himself, she says, has told her to stop trying to untie the knot and instead embrace the synchronicities.The heart of the episode is Bella and Ryan sharing personal gnosis about what working with Belial actually looks and feels like. Bella revisits her infamous first encounter with him a half-sleep vision where he appeared in a terrifying form and "vomited blood" into her mouth recontextualizing it not as something to fear but as a tailored activation designed to break through her subconscious fear of him specifically. She describes him as witty, grounding, physically active in meditation (Ryan echoes this with his sword-fighting imagery), deeply invested in the practitioner's day-to-day life, and fiercely accountable mirroring back exactly the energy you bring, and refusing to enable avoidance or self-deception. The episode closes with a warm advisory to anyone considering working with him: commit honestly, move at your own pace, let him be soft with you, and don't let the scary lore or other practitioners' stumbles put you off. Abella's LinkTree Ryan's LinkTree

Season Two (Ep 25) This episode is Part 1 of what's planned as a multi-part series on King Belial. Bella opens with her usual disclaimer that everything shared is her own unverified or shared personal gnosis rather than doctrine, then walks through Belial's introduction in the apocryphal text the Ascension of Isaiah: how King Manasseh, son of Hezekiah, falls under Belial's influence and is cast as a corrupt ruler for embracing divination and sovereignty, while the prophet Isaiah, who opposes him, is eventually martyred (sawn in half) for refusing to abandon his belief in a coming Messiah. Bella reframes this conventional "good vs. evil" narrative, arguing Manasseh wasn't corrupted but had tapped into something real about Belial too early for a world sliding into monotheism, and that the demonization of Belial mirrors a broader pattern of dismissing mediumship and non-monotheistic spiritual experience. From there the conversation shifts into Bella's personal UPG (unverified personal gnosis)/SPG (shared personal gnosis) framework for working with Belial: his titles and archetypes (Emperor of the Void, the Masterless, King of Lies, trickster, fallen angel), his cross-pantheon presence (including a connection to Brahma and ties she's drawn to extraterrestrial/cosmic themes), and her core argument that Belial is too vast to be "contained" or intellectually understood, only experienced. She describes him as the personification of the void and source energy, warns that practitioners who try to box him in or treat him transactionally tend to face destabilizing consequences ("an atom bomb in your basement"), and frames those ruptures as ultimately generative rebuilding rather than punishment. Ryan chimes in periodically to affirm these points, including noting his own recent practice work with Belial. Bella closes the episode promising a Part 2 covering the more practical side of working with him, including his draconic connections and ties to Vlad the Impaler. Abella's LinkTree Ryan's LinkTree

Season Two (Ep 24) This episode is mostly a solo reflection from Bella, with Ryan offering quiet support throughout. She opens up about a brutal week that brought several old wounds to the surface: perfectionism, fear of being "too strange," money/worth issues, and a deep ache around being "burned out" while feeling unappreciated. She shares a heartfelt fan message as a jumping-off point to talk about her sense of purpose (being a "mirror" who reflects people's potential back to them), then gets into the painful contrast between that purpose and 20 years of rejection in her creative work, especially her ergodic literature project NUMoS. A family conflict that spilled into a conversation with her young daughter adds another layer of rawness to the episode. The second half shifts toward how she's been processing all this through mind-body-spirit practice and small "divine" synchronicities crying in a sun shower, a gifted tarot deck and perfume from Ryan, and book covers messages that felt like signs from Lucifer, Leviathan, and Belial. She uses these to illustrate her "let them / underestimate me" mantra about not needing external validation, recommends a few poetry collections (by Megan Fernandez, Jesse K. Bear, Haley Lou Richardson, and R.H. Sinn) as resources for working through similar wounds, and closes with an emotional thank-you to listeners and Ryan for supporting the show and giving her space to be unapologetically herself. She previews next week's episode, which will focus on King Belial. Abella's Linktree Ryan's LinkTree

Season Two (Ep 23) The episode opens with casual small talk Bella describes her morning visiting "Lady Woodstock," a new goddess figure in Woodstock, NY, and documenting the experience for Patreon, before the two dive into their main topic: the concept of "love and light" in witchcraft and occult spirituality. They spend much of the conversation unpacking the negative connotations that phrase has accumulated and how it has become almost a punchline in the community, associated with spiritual bypassing, the suppression of difficult emotions, and a moralistic framing of darkness as something to be purged rather than integrated. Both hosts argue that this "love and light only" mindset ironically causes harm by casting judgment on others and discouraging people from sitting with pain, grief, or anger. The conversation pivots toward a more constructive take, with Bella and Ryan advocating for shadow work and emotional integration as a healthier alternative. They discuss how dark or stagnant energies aren't inherently evil but instead teachers and lessons that, when faced honestly, can lead to genuine self-love and growth. Bella wraps up with a personal example about preparing to see an ex and choosing to process her pettiness internally, not for his sake but for her own peace. The core message is that authentic spiritual practice means making room for the full spectrum of human emotion rather than suppressing the difficult parts under a veneer of positivity. Bella Link Tree Ryan Link Tree

The episode of Morbid Monday invites listeners to let their inner child "step forward," acknowledging how vulnerable and scary that can feel. Bella speaks to the wounds many carry feeling small, dismissed, or unimportant while affirming that the listener is resilient, worthy of gentleness, and always has been. The tone shifts into a visioning exercise: imagining a life where money flows without burnout, where you speak at your own pace without fear, where joy and play are prioritized over productivity-as-identity. Bella encourages listeners to release comparison and envy, reframing others' success as proof of what's also possible for you. The episode closes with an affirmation that the programming keeping you "small" no longer has to apply and that reconnecting with your inner child is the path back to that freedom. Abella's Link Tree