My Ordinary Life

Join me as I take a peek into Toxic V Healthy relationships, Domestic Violence (DV), our legal system and the Netflix show, MAID.

With all the school shootings happening around the U.S the last 10 years, I decided it was time to reflect on a time I was in a school shooting. I was living in Woodbridge, VA on December 9th 2009 and was attending NVCC as a freshman. This day is the day I started to listen to my sixth sense, which is my intuition, my gut. This day changed my life.  https://www.nytimes.com/2009/12/10/us/10shooting.html

In this Part 1 of 3 episode, I discuss on why I need to have a biopsy (Colposcopy) as well as what to expect from the procedure.  Colposcopy is a medical diagnostic procedure to visually examine the cervix as well as the vagina and vulva using a colposcope. The main goal of colposcopy is to prevent cervical cancer by detecting and treating precancerous lesions early.

⚠️Explicit Content⚠️ Today's episode I discuss why I became a Life Coach and started a Podcast to help others. 

In this episode I reflect on a period of time in my life where I suffered from an eating disorder, Starvation, due to bullying. I discuss what it's like to try and gain weight with an Hyperactive Thyroid, the diet I tried and how you can get to your ideal weight goal.  If you or someone you know is suffering from an eating disorder, there are resources for you: https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline https://www.eatingdisorderhope.com/information/resources-for-anorexia-bulimia-and-binge-eating-disorder Check out my @Fulldisclosher_podcast episode where I interview a famous author in Belgium about her first published book about her journey through her eating disorder. https://open.spotify.com/episode/0RwWESGjOXjiEG2lIRmlux?si=BEP-ksM9Q06PNCWKjut-QQ

In this episode I discuss COVID. Did I have it? Why was I against the vaccine and what was the deciding factor into why I became vaccinated? Also, I reflect on some decisions I have to make regarding my reproductive system. Was the vaccination to blame or just a coincidence? Find out......

❗️NSFW❗️ In today's episode I take some time to reflect on being an OnlyFans "active" creator. Yes, you are right to say that I dabbled in the Adult Entertainment Industry for a bit. What was it like? How much money did I make? Why did I stop being an active creator? Find out on this episode. If you or anyone you know is a creator on OnlyFans, please share your story with me or pass along this podcast episode to them :)

Join me in today's episode as I share my experiences with living on both Coasts in the US. What are the differences? What Coast do I prefer to live on and why? 

In today's episode I talk about the battle I have with my mental health, what I suffer from and where I am at today with it. This is what I live with: SAD - A mood disorder characterized by depression that occurs at the same time every year. Seasonal affective disorder occurs in climates where there is less sunlight at certain times of the year. Symptoms include fatigue, depression, hopelessness, and social withdrawal. Treatment includes light therapy (phototherapy), talk therapy, and medications. PTSD - A disorder in which a person has difficulty recovering after experiencing or witnessing a terrifying event. The condition may last months or years, with triggers that can bring back memories of the trauma accompanied by intense emotional and physical reactions. Symptoms may include nightmares or unwanted memories of the trauma, avoidance of situations that bring back memories of the trauma, heightened reactions, anxiety, or depressed mood. Treatment includes different types of trauma-focused psychotherapy as well as medications to manage symptoms. Anxiety/Panic Attacks - Sudden episode of intense fear or anxiety and physical symptoms, based on a perceived threat rather than imminent danger. Insomnia - Persistent problems falling and staying asleep.Most cases of insomnia are related to poor sleep habits, depression, anxiety, lack of exercise, chronic illness, or certain medications. Symptoms may include difficulty falling or staying asleep and not feeling well-rested. Treatment for insomnia consists of improving sleep habits, behavior therapy, and identifying and treating underlying causes. Sleeping pills may also be used, but should be monitored for side effects. Hypervigilance - Is a heightened state of arousal, stress or sensitivity to certain sensory stimuli. It can cause intense emotional reactions, anxiety and impulsive patterns of behaviour. It makes us feel alert to hidden dangers - a primal sense of threat, a feeling of treading around on eggshells without knowing why. Abandonment - Emotional abandonment is a subjective emotional state in which people feel undesired, left behind, insecure, or discarded. People experiencing emotional abandonment may feel at a loss.

In this episode I reflect on the times I experienced "second-hand" racism or judgement from East Coast to West Coast. Why are certain people less accepting then others? How can we change the world to be more understanding and accept one another? 

In today's episode I reflect on the search of my biological father. My father left my mother and I before I was born. Is this a happy ending? Did anything positive come from this search? Find out.......

In today's episode I talk about my experience having a sister who is special needs and has mental health disabilities. My younger sister, by 5 years, suffers from VCFS and Schizophrenia. For those of you who don't know, Velocardiofacial syndrome (VCFS) is a genetic condition characterized by abnormal pharyngeal arch development that results in defective development of the parathyroid glands, thymus, and the conotruncal region of the heart. Shprintzen and colleagues first described the syndrome in 1978.Dec 15, 2020 and Schizophrenia is a chronic brain disorder that affects less than one percent of the U.S. population. When schizophrenia is active, symptoms can include delusions, hallucinations, disorganized speech, trouble with thinking and lack of motivation.

In today's episode I share my story about being bullied from 3rd-11th grade. How has it impacted me? Is bullying worse today with technology and social media? What's your story?

In this mornings episode I talk about my experience with dating and making new friends. Does social media have a negative impact on being able to begin and maintain these relationships? Or is it just people have become so shitty self entitled? 

 Next time you take a bite of chocolate, think about where that chocolate comes from. Did you know Cacao was a fruit Do you know what it looks like or where it grows? Also, I recommend watching Down to Earth with Zac Efron on Netflix. It's mind blowing.

In this episode I reflect on the time I was wrongly institutionalized. What is it like you may ask? Cruel, depressing and cut off from the outside.

In this episode I talk about my first-hand experience with being FWBs with an AFL/NFL player. It's not all cracked up to be. I started becoming the woman I always hated. I was losing myself in this world. Did I make it out okay? Find out on today's episode....

⚠️SENSITIVE TOPIC⚠️ In this mini diary I talk about my experience with giving birth to my son, Daniel, and shortly after losing my stepfather to Pancreatic Cancer. 

⚠️Trigger Warning ⚠️ In this episode I talk about my battle with suicide. If you or anyone you know is suffering from suicidal thoughts please speak up and reach out to get help.  https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 800-273-8255 https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/suicide-prevention Warning Signs Warning signs that someone may be at immediate risk for attempting suicide include: Talking about wanting to die or wanting to kill themselves Talking about feeling empty or hopeless or having no reason to live Talking about feeling trapped or feeling that there are no solutions Feeling unbearable emotional or physical pain Talking about being a burden to others Withdrawing from family and friends Giving away important possessions Saying goodbye to friends and family Putting affairs in order, such as making a will Taking great risks that could lead to death, such as driving extremely fast Talking or thinking about death often Other serious warning signs that someone may be at risk for attempting suicide include: Displaying extreme mood swings, suddenly changing from very sad to very calm or happy Making a plan or looking for ways to kill themselves, such as searching for lethal methods online, stockpiling pills, or buying a gun Talking about feeling great guilt or shame Using alcohol or drugs more often Acting anxious or agitated Changing eating or sleeping habits Showing rage or talking about seeking revenge It is important to note that suicide is not a normal response to stress. Suicidal thoughts or actions are a sign of extreme distress and should not be ignored. If these warning signs apply to you or someone you know, get help as soon as possible, particularly if the behavior is new or has increased recently.

On today's episode I talk about my biggest regret in life and the emotional pain I endured and still endure today. Turning pain from negative to positive is a HUGE accomplishment. 12 years of a toxic relationship that turned into a future of healthy friendship. Patience, self sacrifice and listening to what the universe whispers to you. If we can do it, so can you! :)